maaf sekali udah agak lama nggak menyentuh blank page blog ini. the truth is akhir2 ini saya terombang-ambing rutinitas. tiap hari kayaknya cepet banget, dan banyak sekali yang mesti dilakuin. I got overwhelmed.
pada saat yang sama cuaca Jakarta sangat ga ramah, especially waktu jam pulangnya. hari senin kemarin saya ngabisin 2,5 jam di jalan menuju rumah. untungnya saya berusaha mikir positif, berusaha nggak memasukkan kekesalan terlalu dalam. besoknya, ada pekerjaan yang lumayan menyita pikiran saya. ditambah dengan persoalan-persoalan perintilan yang bikin saya bingung sendiri. akhirnya badan nge-drop dan udah 2 hari ini saya istirahat di rumah.
I can’t fully describe what happen to me lately. I still a little bit confused. There are new changes in life, there are new friends but I also take a more deeper look with my other close friends. I guess in certain amount time, you start seeing someone in a big picture. You see all of their layers and you finally get their flaws. I am not a saint, I have flaws. The only thing that bugged me is when people start taking someone for granted. I tried not to judge, but as a friend, who cares, judge is there to help you back on track. But maybe it is enough for us to get close. I mean, I see them everyday in three years. In work environment, there are certain polite culture not to reveal so much. So there are more pressure.
Nothing good can came from feeling negative inside. I just want to flush out the negatives and feel positive energy again inside, just focus on the greatness in life.
